love

love love love


ya is her 
now i know i'm really not wasting my time on what i'm doing
love you till the end!

Sad? but I Still Must be Strong

My Heart Really Broken, i'm so tired of loving anyone now
2 Years Loving A Girl Who is.....
3 month of Chasing a girl Fail
2 month of Falling In Love Fail
I Had Enough! I'll Never Fall In Love With Another Anymore
to my Brothers Who Wish I have a GF Sorry
Let Me Decide My Love Life Please!


Yesterday to me is a very sad day One Very Sad Memory 
i call my Bro to take me to the beach that
my ex tell me she going to Singapore
And Once Again I Cry at that Beach
I kneel down and Cry!!! My Heart Is Shouting again And
No One Knows What I'm Shouting
and Yesterday i Shout out Why???!!!
Why my Life is Always That Hard For me?!
Why Everytime I want Something Why God Always Take It Away
3 had been a very special number for me
My dad suffer 3 years of cancer and he died
I Suffer 3 Years Without Happiness,
3 years Without Love,
all add up It's 3 part of  9 Years,
and 3 is also my birth month March The 28th.

3 year with out happiness,

Everyday is Dark and Meaningless!

In 3 Year without Love,

My Heart Is Empty!

but Everytime I Look At The Skies I See Someone Smiling at me

Calling my name and say: Be Strong!

and I Cried I Shout again,

Why No One Knows Me?

Why When I Need Someone I'm Always Alone To Face Everything Myself
Why? Why me!!! God Why Me???


Die Seems To Be A Better Then Living in My Life
but I Tell Myself
No! I must be Strong!!
i must be strong for
My Family!
My Friend!
My Self!
Now The Only Way To Let Down Everything is To Forget ***
I Know There Is More For Me Out There And If I Give Up
I Will Never See A Day Light  Like 3 Years ago!
I Know How It feels Man!!! Cause I Walk Thought All Of It
3 Years man i had enough i wan to be strong!!!
There Is More For Me Out There Then Crying and Sad!
I Don't Want To Hide Anymore I Must Be Strong


I Had A Mission and That's I Don't Want To See Anyone Sad
Like Me 3 Years Ago Or Even Worse
I Know How It Feels I really Do Inside Me
Stand Up Everyone Stop Being Someone You Don't Want to Be
Be Strong Face Your Own Life That The Only Way!!!
Believe me i know how it feel like when u felt you lost everything
Same Do I Now but I Choose To Fight This Battle Against Myself






To All:
            Stay Strong Be Yourself Man Never Look Down On Yourself
            You Can Do It


To Myself:
                 It Ain't The Last Challange In Your Life Are You Ready?
                 Yes! I am
                 I Know No Matter What God Will Never Give up Me
                 So Why Give Up Myself!




Be Strong; :')

About Dreams and Giving Up

Hey...
What Is A Dream Accually?
Dream is something you want and wish to Have it
And Dream is not Day Dreaming!
Many People Dream to be a singer,a rich man,so on
Sometimes We just Think too much and 
we Forget who we really are,What We Really Want
we just tell ourself 
No I can't do it!!!
but Hey~,Everything Start from 0%!
No one Is born and to talk or walk!
We LEARN it! We LEARN it! Remember!!!
Years Ago,i'm the one who say No To Myself!!
i'm the one who fear i can do it!!! i'm a nobody!!
but God Wake Me Up!
God Tells Me,It's Your Dream,You Make It Happen!
I'll Never Give Up You!
The Only Question Is
Are You Willing To Walk This Extra Mile For It! 
So Stop Saying No To Yourself
It's Just The Matter 
Do You Want it To Happen! and Are You Ready!!!
If You Don't Work For It How Will You Know 
You Can't Do It!!!!
So Do It!!! Trust in Youself,
Remember You're Made For A Reason!

Will People Laugh At Us?!
Stop Worrying what people Think About you
When We are Kids,we don't care who Thay are
a teacher,a student,a senior 
No! we just be Ourself,Do What We Want!
The Only Thing That can Stop Us is The Thing That Hurt Our Ass~
And now That Thing Won't Find Us Anymore,so Why Worry!
Beside That is What You Want Your Dream! Not Thier's!!!
So Why Bother!


If You Willing To Walk An Extra Mile for your Dreams 
it won't be the same anymore! and
you will never look down on your dreams again!
Oh and My Dream Is Become 
a Successful Business man and have a Wonderful Family
and to me Spiritually All i need to do is just Put A small small Faith in Big Big God
oh and by the way i'm a Christian! and I'm Proud Of It


Is Giving Up An Easy Job?
Give up Good or Bad?
No.Giving Up ain't easy job,It's hard!
So is Giving Up A Bad thing to do?
Well~~~ It's Your Call
but never let someone to Make You Give Up or Continue on Something
cause It's Your Call,You Are the Commander Of Your Own Life!
We need To Have Wisdom On The Things We Choose and Do
and Wisdom means Knowing it and Doing it
We Don't Follow People Blindly!
when you i a tight situation and you can't make any decision
just listen to yourself,What You Really Want!





Question (All): So Are You Willing To Walk An Extra Mile For Your Dreams?


(Christian):Are You Willing To Put This Tiny Faith of Yours On A Mighty God!?
                  ( I Not A Pastor or a Holy Guy,i'm only Me)




God Bless All!,thanks for supporting!

The Process of my life's love,problem and Choices

Do you ever fall in love deeply?
Is loving someone an easy job

To me yes i do falling deeply in love with someone

but ends up badly

and loving someone is not easy!!!

i once thought loving someone is

iloveyou,youloveme.

but it's wrong!!!

you need to give your

time,sharing,caring and understanding to your partner

and of cause it will fit with kissing skills and a whole lot more

but it's all worth it at the end

well do i have a girlfriend before
Yes have but now
no but hope to have one.

I once thought that growing will be fun and easy
and now i will say yes,it's fun
but it ain't easy business at all
when i was a kid i use to find problem
well NOW the problem find me!


Is Problem a Big Deal with life?
Yes! it's a very big deal!
During the process of growing up I Found out
problems can change a person view of everything
and there are 3 kinds of people
Hide it,Wait  it, Change it
those who hide will never find a day light in his miserable life
those who wait for it will keep ask why people life is better then theirs
but People who Change it will keep on Learning and have a better life


Why?
when you hide from something, you're surrendering Yourself
but those who keep trying and trying and never gave up will learn about life!
and this is why Heroes Are Born They Never Gave Up
My Father Use To Be My Hero,he Never Give me up
will Problem ever stop?
It will never STOP! Unless you solve it Yourself!
It will just go worse by the years
more and more challanges will come into your life without you asking
and each will be harder then the last it will never stop growing
and From Every Problem you Solve Slowly You Won't Notice
That you Have Already Change!
you will never be like who you're years ago


I Use To Be Someone Who Have Pride
Who Is Loved by,A Winner and A Son
I meet problem Far more Harder Then
an average Teen Have to
and this is why i say my father `Use To Be' my hero
My Father Pass Away When i was 10
and i Become Someone Who People Look Down At!
Someone Who Hides! Someone Who Is Sad!
I Use To Be A Loser!!!!!
And Someone Who I Hate Myself!
Yes i'm tired of this hard life but I Know
If I Keep Hiding Like Before I Will Never Grow Up
and BE A MAN!
Now I'm Fighting,I Wan My Life To Be The Best!!!
and I'm Not The Person I Use To Be After My Dad Pass Away
Everything Happens For A Reason Without my Dad Death
I'll never know all of these things
This Is For You Dad Hope You Will Hear It,it's from your son's Heart
I Love You Dad,Miss A lot.


Chances are for those who are Prepared!
and when you hide it or let it go
there might not be another!
but never regret for which choice you have chosen
Regret will just lead to Nothing!
For those who Are regretting
Stop it no one will help you Save Yourself!
Stand up live for the present moment
Change thing That can still be change!


Yes,i make a lot of wrong choices but
during those hardship i learning thing
i fight to get out of it! and i am now!
No Matter Which Choice you Make Right Or Wrong
There is Always A Lesson in it for you to learn
I Let Loads of Chance Go By Too Easily Last Time
And i Won't let Any Pass By That Easy Anymore
I'm Willing To Fight To Be A Better Man have A Better Life!
Do You?


So My Question is Do You Ever Think About Things I'm Taking now or You Just Hide From it?!

I Know Some will Say What i Write is Bunch Of Shit

but This Is Who I Am And I'm Proud Of It

God Will Never Give You Up
So Don't Give Up Yourself!

Hang out at gurney

my classmate and i to pro d
wan exam liao still go hang out
but who cares no one is at home for the holiday darn holiday
need to cook myself buy stuff myself do everything myself
i already use to it nothing special to me
today is so awsome i din lose any billboard match WoW
1st time come out of Mega Q for 5 hours no need give a sen cool!
but accually i win alot last time but not winning continues for 5 hours!!!
and we also go see tsunami a very touching korean movie
not bad but not the best to me
Transformer is still no.1 to me

well a good and bad news in one!
i'm going to USA study next mid year after their summer holiday
good news is i can have a good education and future
bad news is i can't stay with my family,friends i will miss all of you!!!
T.T
miss Penang
miss Church
miss Boys' Brigade
miss Friend
miss Family
miss Home T.T
55% going to USA
the 45% is for me to decide do i really wan to go
i don't want to make another wrong decision for my life
God Help Me Pls!!!

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